Imposter syndrome

There’s a feeling I can’t seem to shake off. A feeling so strong that I’ve been fighting it.

A few months ago, I decided to build software that would enable me to transfer files over the internet using a USB flash drive. My tech stack of choice was Go. I used the Go framework for building desktop apps with web technologies like React or Vue; Wails. This was my first time stepping outside my web development domain to do something different. Something I might call my challenge.

It was not an easy job. In fact, getting the USB to handle file transfers was far more tedious than I imagined. But in the end, it worked. That part alone took about a month.

The point I’m trying to make is this: despite taking that leap of faith, I still feel like I’m not there yet. I still feel like I let myself down. I’m still scared of things I don’t even fully understand. I want to build things like Linus Torvalds, but the reality of life is very vivid before my eyes.

Everyone says I’m really good. I can see it myself sometimes. But whatever this feeling is; this imposter syndrome, it’s stronger than I thought. Even at this stage, its shackles still bind me.

How are you dealing with it? How did you fix this feeling of not being good enough?